Wasting time, one click at a time.

So at this point, I’m in between Season’s on the blog. This means, I am not posting daily until Season 3 is underway. My idea for this season is to post for 100 consecutive days in a row. It will be called ‘Season 3: 100 days of blogging’. I was thinking of tying it together with my list of 100 challenges, all will be told in the very near future. In the mean time, I’m doing a few interlude posts to stay relevant.

I don’t know why, but lately I’ve been feeling a little deflated. Not bad as such, just there seems to be a lack of motivation to work productively. Now, I don’t lack any motivation to get out of bed, to exercise, to eat well, to socialise. It just seems to be work related. My video/song on YouTube this week almost didn’t happen, I ended up resorting to a song I recorded years ago and using footage that was shot a long time ago. To be honest, the video was a quick put-together that took about 25 minutes. I should be putting more care and attention into these things but for some reason, I’m finding it hard to drum enthusiasm. This blogging platform is a similar story; I want to get on with creating the online store, completing goals and challenges I’ve set myself and also giving the whole website a bit of a re-vamp in its design. For some reason, I just can’t seem to motivate myself to do it.

So what has changed?

Well, I’ve noticed that since my productivity has decreased, my time spent browsing needles and mostly pointless social media has increased. I’ve fallen back into the habit of spending spare moments looking at pointless Instagram posts and watching mindless YouTube videos.

Apparently I like exercise and food… Who’d have guessed?

Now I don’t mean that I’m wasting all my time. I make a point of not looking at my phone and/or the internet until after 8:30am, my breaks at work are spent working mostly and then I typically get in from the gym, after work, organise and pack my stuff for the next day, make and eat dinner, have a general sort out and then that leaves me with a good 1-2 hour window of downtime. Time that, up until a few weeks ago, I was using relatively productively; writing blog posts, writing/recording songs, making videos, drawing, reading, etc. For the last few weeks however, I’ve been opening my laptop and watching pointless videos.

Now don’t get me wrong, I like watching YouTube videos as a way to chill out and unwind. However, there are certain YouTubers that I actually enjoy watching and following that I feel add value to my life, they’re inspirational and help give me ideas. However, once I have finished watching those YouTubers I then click on random videos that add no value to my life or thoughts. This is the behaviour I want to stop and instead use the time more effectively.

My YouTube channel. I’ve uploaded 9 videos since I started the weekly video challenge. Not many views but still, keeping to my word.

In my list of 100 to-do’s I stated a few times that I would like to spend more time posting to social media than browsing, and spend more time making and uploading videos to YouTube than those I watch. Motivation is key at this point, I need to get motivated again. I need to feel a buzz about creating these things. The answer to my problems? Perhaps to start this 100 day blog challenge and perhaps I need to start making some YouTube videos that I enjoy making a bit more than the weekly music/song uploads?

So, this is what I’m going to do. Blog therapy, once again helping me realise the answer as I write about the problem. Man, I need to get back to daily.

Any one got any suggestions of how I go about more YouTube content? Anything you want me to write about on the blog? Anyone wanna help me set up the shop page?

Get in touch, yo.
BG