Season Two: Post Twenty-five.
First of all, lets talk about this morning’s (almost) 9 miler. I love running. I love running in the morning, even more.
What now? A question my brain never really stops asking. In a way it’s great, it makes for an overload of productivity but sometimes it means that I just don’t stop and appreciate the moment I’m in. I think part of the reason I love running so much is that you’re taking in all your thoughts as well as all the beauty of life around you but you’re not stood still and your cardiovascular system is working hard, sending endorphins flying around your brain. Just to sit and think wouldn’t have the same effect for me.
It’s a Friday, as stated before this doesn’t mean a lot to me. I get up almost the same time on Saturday and Sunday as I do every other day, I don’t enjoy staying up late, going out, I don’t drink… Friday is just another evening, and I love that. The only difference is the rest of the world seems to share my sense of positivity about it being a day in which we’re all alive and healthy (most of us, anyway).
What now? I look at everything I wish to excel in life and think – what now? What do I need to do to get to the next stage? Where is it I should go? Now I’ve built it to this point, what is it I need to build it into?
It’s all part of having a high functioning, hyper active and obsessive mind. I don’t want to sit still and settle on things. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t want to up and leave physically all time time. I just mean, in the areas of interest that are important to me I want to move ever forward; learn more, grow more, build more, create more. I definitely don’t want to move away from where I live, but I do want to move out of my parents house. I don’t want to stop blogging, I want to continue posting but I do want to grow and expand this platform. The list goes on…
Why am I telling you all this? Well, this blog is much of a therapy for me as anything else. Right now it’s 7:30pm on a Friday and I feel restless, like I want to do something productive but part of me also feels as though I should just take a moment to chill out. “Decompress” as my old manager used to say. Perhaps I will take a leaf out of yesterdays post and watch Harry Potter.
I’ll let you know what happens in tomorrow’s post.
Have a good Friday night all.
BG
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